hikaranko: (one of those days)
i am... really messed up, i think.

i need to stop just saying things. i need to actually do them.
hikaranko: (one of those days)
 i feel like there's no one i can talk to about this.
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first of all... i should not be sitting at my computer in a wig just for kicks, because that's... just odd of me. but whatever.

SECONDLY!! i feel like my life has suddenly exploded with activity. i've been able to hang on to my on-campus school job, despite having graduated last spring, so i can't even begin to talk about how frikkin' awesome that is. i mean, sure it's barely more than minimum wage, but income is income and i can't complain. but in addition to that job, what was once an internship officially turned into an odd sort of part-time job, but with the way things are running at that tiny little start-up film company at the moment, it's actually threatening to become a full-fledged full-time job! which, needless to say, WOULD MAKE ME SO HAPPY. i do have my complaints about what i do there and what it's like, but i'm hoping that'll all change once more money comes in and we're employed full-time.

but not only that? my sister, who works as some... immigration thing in DC (idek, i just know she gets lots of money for it :|) called me the other day asking if she could hire me to animate something for her. and i'm not sure, but i think my eyes bugged right out of my head when i heard her say that. the job itself sounds fairly simple and straightforward, and i'm sure i could totally do it if set my mind to it. so yeah, now i'm just waiting on her to give me exact info so i get to it. :D

ANOTHER THING. i got to see Back to the Future in the theater over the weekend. :D and as a huge BttF nerd, let me tell you, IT WAS AWESOME. tickets were sold out the day of, some people came in costume - we actually saw a real fucking delorean in the fucking parking lot. I WANTED IT. though me and my sister were like "...i'm not used to seeing it without all the stuff on the back o.o" i also saw some guy in the full Marty McFly outfit, orange lifevest, denim jacket and everything. and then some other people with the multi-colored 2015 hats! so YEAH. NERDS UNITE.

but seriously, it was awesome to see it on the big screen. i mean, that NEVER happens. except it apparently does for the 25th anniversary of the nerdiest, greatest movie OF ALL TIME. they even gave out posters after the screening, and you can bet that i grabbed several :| i gave one to my boyfriend as apology for him miss it, but still. SEVERAL.

... also i swear i'll get to updating the Disneyland thing. i'm waiting on pictures. :(
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here's the thing. i know my sister means well by amassing massive amounts of leftover food into the fridge. she does, after all, have to provide food for me somehow, and that's the best way she knows how to do that, since she's not in the apartment for 4-5 days a week. but i would think that, after living with me for several years straight, that she's realized that unlike her, i don't like eating leftovers. i never have. it's just... gross to me. i don't know why, it just is.

she also has to realize that i'm no longer home as much as i once was, so i have no reason to not be able to get food for myself somehow. i'm not sure how exactly she expects me to eat all the food that winds up in there within the one week that it remains good when i'm not home most of the day. even if i did like leftovers, i'm not capable of packing that shit away as fast as she can.

i just think that if she really wants all that food to get eaten? she should also be here to help out with that.

...

and then there's the part where she makes me feel bad about it. yes, i know it's a waste. yes, i know i said i would clean up. yes, yes, yes, i understand all that. and yes, i know that i need to be nagged in order to get anything done. but does she have to do it with that tone of voice? that one that sounds like she's so terribly disappointed in me? that absolutely reeks an air of "God, you suck at life"? that makes me feel like such a horrible person? y'know, i'm not the one who never comes home. our situation at the moment basically stands as follows: she pays the rent for my apartment in exchange for the right to use the same as a closet. so why does she still feel the need to try playing disappointed mother on me? she's never here. what does she even care about how i live?

i get that she wants me to learn how to do shit the same way her boyfriend did. initiation through fire or something, right? but- well, maybe this is a big shocker or something, but... i'm not her boyfriend. knowing full well exactly how i grew up, she honestly thinks i'm gonna figure out how to do all this on my own? i get it, i'm spoiled. time to wake up, sleeping beauty, and learn about the real world.

yes, my oh so very independent boyfriend's a good influence. and i get the tough love bit, i really do.

but... sometimes? i kinda wish i had my sister back.

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