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Sep. 8th, 2011 11:22 amthis video... will probably always be one of my favorite Ranma videos ever. :3
Particle Man by Miki_Koishikawa
Particle Man by Miki_Koishikawa
2 Days to Go
Dec. 22nd, 2010 07:47 pmi leave for manila on the 24th.
i can't say i'm excited for the trip. on the one hand, yes i miss my family and it'd be cool to see some of my high school friends again and all that. on the other... i can't really think of much that i actually wanna do in the Philippines right now. AND i'm not looking forward to more 12-18 hour flights, especially not the one in which i'm stuck with my sister and her boyfriend. especially since my sister has become a source of irrational rage for me lately.
the holidays always kind of suck for me. i guess it goes with the territory of not being a celebrant of them.
oh well.
i can't say i'm excited for the trip. on the one hand, yes i miss my family and it'd be cool to see some of my high school friends again and all that. on the other... i can't really think of much that i actually wanna do in the Philippines right now. AND i'm not looking forward to more 12-18 hour flights, especially not the one in which i'm stuck with my sister and her boyfriend. especially since my sister has become a source of irrational rage for me lately.
the holidays always kind of suck for me. i guess it goes with the territory of not being a celebrant of them.
oh well.
Random Dream
Nov. 5th, 2010 08:49 amso... i had an interesting dream, and i'm gonna try to write it out before i forget it. it was weird. i'm almost positive it was RP-inspired because of all the different characters that were there and the situation they were in. and of course i was sort of viewing most of it from Ed and Sora's POV. but anyway... i'm gonna try and recall it here, 'cause it was weird and random but also kinda cool.
there's this society. i'm guessing it's in a poor, dystopian world, which of course means that there's that perfect society in the middle of it all, claiming itself as paradise and the epicenter of current civilization. it's all white and pristine and stuff, and they've got technology and all that. BUT that's not where all the cool characters are. the cool characters are in this, like, slum area that's just a little ways outside of the white fortress. they're separated somehow, with mountains and a huge body of water. the white fortress has an access point from the slums- it's like a ski-lift, but it's super high speed and it takes you through a whole bunch of tunnels, and these tunnels are lined with screens that explain what it's like within the fortress walls to the people riding in on the ski-lift. i assume that thing was heavily guarded, otherwise why the hell would people be staying in the slum place.
but anyway, like i said, the cool people are in the slums. and it totally looks like the marketplace from Agrabah; dusty, super crowded, very loud and lively. and people are very much struggling to survive and make their living and whatnot. i remember being with a family, and there was something about healthy babies being rarely born and this family had an infant. and i was walking with the family and holding the baby at some point and they were all like "hide him, hide him!" so i was trying to, but people pretty much could see the baby and were making comments about new kids coming in. and there was this one person chilling around that totally looked like Envy and it was tripping me out.
and i remember there was a lot of just... chilling, figuring stuff out. and then i guess at some point i became Ed or something (well, somehow he turned up) and came up with this plan to seize the white fortress. i think the plan only came to him because something happened with a soldier or other authority figure and whatever it was, he didn't like it. so i remember there being a fight, and then Ed ran to the jail and did one of those attention-getting whistles as the soldiers/police/whatever were putting people into the cells. and Ed goes "if you don't need to be in here, get the FUCK OUT!!" and so everyone cheers and surges out of the cells, knocking the soldiers and stuff out. and Ed goes leading the charge on the ski-lift thing and everyone hops onto one.
it goes rushing to the white fortress and they see all the screens. and Ed's looking at all the screens and he realizes that they each display the different rules and credos that the "utopian society" follows.then there's a video about all the nice stuff inside the utopia, and how it all works. but then, while Ed and whoever else is in that tunnel, i got a look at what was actually going on at the place while they were describing stuff. so i remember there was something about a landing site for... something that i assume is similar to a helicopter or other flying thing. and there was that automated voice explaining how it worked, and how shit was automated and the plane-things used the distinct pattern of the landing site to find it and land by itself. but then, like. Gaston from Beauty and the Beast showed up, strutting around on the site and messing up the pattern by accident. ... there were a couple others like that, i remember a pool being mentioned even though its hardly used... but yeah, that was that. and then Ed and the others who were led in his charge got inside.
MEANWHILE - and we switched POVs because i woke up for 5 seconds to roll over - back at the slums, there's some kid (i dunno if he was from a show or not, though i think he might've been. i'm sure i knew his name while i was dreaming) who's getting picked on by other local kids. they're like, throwing stuff at him. rocks or eggs or... or whatever. and they're all mocking him telling him to say stupid things and mocking him or whatever the hell. and it's totally crossing a line, and you know it. but the kid's not budging, he just takes the hits, doesn't say anything, but he's definitely pretty mad. and then right when the kids tell him some specific line to say (damn, i can't remember what it was >_<), suddenly, out of NOWHERE, this giant wolf-beast-monster-creature pops out, knocks the other kids to the ground and growls the line at them. the kids run. one of them wets himself first. so the kid that got rescued just looks up to see who helped him... and who should be RIDING the damn monster thing? SORA from KH. and Sora's all smiling and like "close call, huh? c'mon, hop on!" and then they go off to try to get into the white fortress thing, too. there was a third person with them, some little creature kinda like Dobby or Gollum but friendlier and sillier. but yeah, they formed a group and off they went.
ELSEWHERE - there was a family of Asians. i get the distinct impression that they were Korean for whatever reason. they were very touristy, and they were standing at the edge of the body of water that separated the slum area from the utopia. and they were all planning to get across. they had apparently heard that there were jet skis somewhere in the area and that those could be used to get across because they wouldn't set off the mines in the water, or wouldn't be detected by radar, or something like that. but there are only like, two or three people in the group who are being totally serious about this. the rest of them are very touristy, and they're all bubbly and excited. but when they get to the jet-ski place, they arrive just in time to see more rebellion stuffs - a whole bunch of people swoop in and snatch the jet-skis up. and they're all like "AW CRAP, now what?!" so while they're trying to figure that out, one of their touristy relative-people is taking pictures. she takes a picture in the general direction of soldier/guard things, and the flash goes off. and obviously it alerts them. so these soldier dudes come in after like, 10 seconds, and they have these crazy ass ray-guns - i think they disintegrated stuff. so they point them at the poor Korean family and start disintegrating them one by one. i have a very distinct memory of the grandmother being like "where are we going?!" as she vanished. :(
... i know there was another part. it involved being in a bathroom after a shower and looking at towels, and knowing that the towel i had around my shoulders was not made of the same stuff as the towels in the utopia, and that if any piece of my towel fell off and got analyzed, i'd be screwed. ... but i think it was somewhere around then that the dream ended.
...weird, huh? it'd make for an interesting story setting, though!
there's this society. i'm guessing it's in a poor, dystopian world, which of course means that there's that perfect society in the middle of it all, claiming itself as paradise and the epicenter of current civilization. it's all white and pristine and stuff, and they've got technology and all that. BUT that's not where all the cool characters are. the cool characters are in this, like, slum area that's just a little ways outside of the white fortress. they're separated somehow, with mountains and a huge body of water. the white fortress has an access point from the slums- it's like a ski-lift, but it's super high speed and it takes you through a whole bunch of tunnels, and these tunnels are lined with screens that explain what it's like within the fortress walls to the people riding in on the ski-lift. i assume that thing was heavily guarded, otherwise why the hell would people be staying in the slum place.
but anyway, like i said, the cool people are in the slums. and it totally looks like the marketplace from Agrabah; dusty, super crowded, very loud and lively. and people are very much struggling to survive and make their living and whatnot. i remember being with a family, and there was something about healthy babies being rarely born and this family had an infant. and i was walking with the family and holding the baby at some point and they were all like "hide him, hide him!" so i was trying to, but people pretty much could see the baby and were making comments about new kids coming in. and there was this one person chilling around that totally looked like Envy and it was tripping me out.
and i remember there was a lot of just... chilling, figuring stuff out. and then i guess at some point i became Ed or something (well, somehow he turned up) and came up with this plan to seize the white fortress. i think the plan only came to him because something happened with a soldier or other authority figure and whatever it was, he didn't like it. so i remember there being a fight, and then Ed ran to the jail and did one of those attention-getting whistles as the soldiers/police/whatever were putting people into the cells. and Ed goes "if you don't need to be in here, get the FUCK OUT!!" and so everyone cheers and surges out of the cells, knocking the soldiers and stuff out. and Ed goes leading the charge on the ski-lift thing and everyone hops onto one.
it goes rushing to the white fortress and they see all the screens. and Ed's looking at all the screens and he realizes that they each display the different rules and credos that the "utopian society" follows.then there's a video about all the nice stuff inside the utopia, and how it all works. but then, while Ed and whoever else is in that tunnel, i got a look at what was actually going on at the place while they were describing stuff. so i remember there was something about a landing site for... something that i assume is similar to a helicopter or other flying thing. and there was that automated voice explaining how it worked, and how shit was automated and the plane-things used the distinct pattern of the landing site to find it and land by itself. but then, like. Gaston from Beauty and the Beast showed up, strutting around on the site and messing up the pattern by accident. ... there were a couple others like that, i remember a pool being mentioned even though its hardly used... but yeah, that was that. and then Ed and the others who were led in his charge got inside.
MEANWHILE - and we switched POVs because i woke up for 5 seconds to roll over - back at the slums, there's some kid (i dunno if he was from a show or not, though i think he might've been. i'm sure i knew his name while i was dreaming) who's getting picked on by other local kids. they're like, throwing stuff at him. rocks or eggs or... or whatever. and they're all mocking him telling him to say stupid things and mocking him or whatever the hell. and it's totally crossing a line, and you know it. but the kid's not budging, he just takes the hits, doesn't say anything, but he's definitely pretty mad. and then right when the kids tell him some specific line to say (damn, i can't remember what it was >_<), suddenly, out of NOWHERE, this giant wolf-beast-monster-creature pops out, knocks the other kids to the ground and growls the line at them. the kids run. one of them wets himself first. so the kid that got rescued just looks up to see who helped him... and who should be RIDING the damn monster thing? SORA from KH. and Sora's all smiling and like "close call, huh? c'mon, hop on!" and then they go off to try to get into the white fortress thing, too. there was a third person with them, some little creature kinda like Dobby or Gollum but friendlier and sillier. but yeah, they formed a group and off they went.
ELSEWHERE - there was a family of Asians. i get the distinct impression that they were Korean for whatever reason. they were very touristy, and they were standing at the edge of the body of water that separated the slum area from the utopia. and they were all planning to get across. they had apparently heard that there were jet skis somewhere in the area and that those could be used to get across because they wouldn't set off the mines in the water, or wouldn't be detected by radar, or something like that. but there are only like, two or three people in the group who are being totally serious about this. the rest of them are very touristy, and they're all bubbly and excited. but when they get to the jet-ski place, they arrive just in time to see more rebellion stuffs - a whole bunch of people swoop in and snatch the jet-skis up. and they're all like "AW CRAP, now what?!" so while they're trying to figure that out, one of their touristy relative-people is taking pictures. she takes a picture in the general direction of soldier/guard things, and the flash goes off. and obviously it alerts them. so these soldier dudes come in after like, 10 seconds, and they have these crazy ass ray-guns - i think they disintegrated stuff. so they point them at the poor Korean family and start disintegrating them one by one. i have a very distinct memory of the grandmother being like "where are we going?!" as she vanished. :(
... i know there was another part. it involved being in a bathroom after a shower and looking at towels, and knowing that the towel i had around my shoulders was not made of the same stuff as the towels in the utopia, and that if any piece of my towel fell off and got analyzed, i'd be screwed. ... but i think it was somewhere around then that the dream ended.
...weird, huh? it'd make for an interesting story setting, though!
apparently today's just... one of those days.
do you ever wake up and just... know something is going to go horribly wrong that day? like there's just... something off. you can't place it, and you don't know what exactly is going to happen, but you're sure that something is going to suck up the rest of the day?
well, that was today for me.
so i tried to avoid it by staying home. but this kind of thing is always unavoidable. naturally, it follows me. it finds me online, and puts it all there, and then that's it. that's me being doomed to suffer through the horrible thing that's coming. and the weird thing is that, with me, it's never shit that i'm directly involved in. it's stuff with my friends, or my family, or whatever. and then i somehow end up feeling responsible. i somehow end up feeling like i have to help fix it, when most of the time there's really nothing i can do.
*sigh* honestly, i don't really know what's going on anymore. everything feels so surreal. everything everyone says seems so distant. i feel so... completely disconnected. and i feel like any attempt to bridge that gap, to reconnect, is getting thwarted. thwarted by some stupid paranoia that everything i do isn't right, even if i try to make it look right 'cause people can see right through it.
guh, i dunno. i'm probably just really extraordinarily abnormal and that's that. :\
back to the point. today was not a good day. it was full of weird and stupid and fail and horrible, and i wish it would end a little faster............................................................................................................................................................................................................
meh.
do you ever wake up and just... know something is going to go horribly wrong that day? like there's just... something off. you can't place it, and you don't know what exactly is going to happen, but you're sure that something is going to suck up the rest of the day?
well, that was today for me.
so i tried to avoid it by staying home. but this kind of thing is always unavoidable. naturally, it follows me. it finds me online, and puts it all there, and then that's it. that's me being doomed to suffer through the horrible thing that's coming. and the weird thing is that, with me, it's never shit that i'm directly involved in. it's stuff with my friends, or my family, or whatever. and then i somehow end up feeling responsible. i somehow end up feeling like i have to help fix it, when most of the time there's really nothing i can do.
*sigh* honestly, i don't really know what's going on anymore. everything feels so surreal. everything everyone says seems so distant. i feel so... completely disconnected. and i feel like any attempt to bridge that gap, to reconnect, is getting thwarted. thwarted by some stupid paranoia that everything i do isn't right, even if i try to make it look right 'cause people can see right through it.
guh, i dunno. i'm probably just really extraordinarily abnormal and that's that. :\
back to the point. today was not a good day. it was full of weird and stupid and fail and horrible, and i wish it would end a little faster............................................................................................................................................................................................................
meh.
z-zombie jesus day??
Apr. 4th, 2010 09:36 am okay first of all? Easter is... such a confusing holiday to me. i guess that probably just stems from the fact that i wasn't raised to celebrate it in any shape or form. all i know is that it has something to do with chocolates, eggs, and bunnies, and that it used to have something to do with Jesus. and apparently that lent thing, the 40 days of giving up something awesome, is related to easter.
LOOKIT ME, I'M LEARNING. 8D
...... also, i'm bored. you know what that means??
I'M DRAGGIN' Y'ALL DOWN WITH ME.
LOOKIT ME, I'M LEARNING. 8D
...... also, i'm bored. you know what that means??
I'M DRAGGIN' Y'ALL DOWN WITH ME.
stupid dreamstuffs...
Apr. 19th, 2009 06:41 amso i was trying to force myself to fall asleep last night (or rather - this morning, i guess <__<) by thinking up stories. and- my brain has this tendency to throw up some angsty stuffs when it's late and dark and whatnot. soooo yeah, i was imagining some of that stuff. and eventually, at some point, i fell asleep. and then the dreaming started.
now, from what i remember, it started with me playing a video game. and it'd alternate between me watching the screen like a normal game, and me being the character i was controlling and everything being in first person. i honestly don't remember what exactly the game was about, or what i was really doing. i remember the graphics not being very good, though... it was like one of the last games to come out for the original PlayStation or something. that's what it looked like. anyways, i don't remember much of it, but i remember lots of sidequests.
the last part is much clearer to me. i was supposed to be going to the store for something important. i remember making the character walk over there, and then the screen fading to black to load. and then here i was the character, and i was walking to the store. and for some reason, it looked nothing like the game anymore. i was on the corner of Hollywood and Western, heading for the Out of the Closet store there. and i had my phone out and was about to call my sister, 'cause she was gonna guide me and give me instructions.
so i'm walking, head's kinda bowed 'cause i'm dialing, i think one of my iPod headphones was in my ear. i'm not quite paying attention to where i'm going. and then suddenly, somebody sort of steps into my peripheral vision and i figure "oh whatever, person just walking by". but then that person grabs me, forcing me to look up, sort of dragging me toward the wall. and i'm like, shocked, so i drop my phone. and this person's all up in my face, and for some reason i feel like i've seen this person before, like it was one of those people that ask for money or donations or something that i'd said i'd give something to later. so i was like "i don't have anything i don't have anything right now!" but person didn't seem to care - i don't remember what exactly they were saying, but- i think they were looking for something that i was supposed to have? i dunno.
and i dropped my phone, right? so it falls on the floor and i'm like "crap, my phone!" and the person goes "you don't need it!" and freaking shoves me in that direction and steps over my phone - and person has all these long robes with a hood and crap, so i'm convinced that they're trying to steal my phone and i freak out. and i'm all screaming "i need my phone, let me grab my phone, i have to talk to my sister!" and person's got me by the shoulders and is shaking me like "no you don't, where is it?!"
at some point they dragged me to the floor so i'm like, on my knees. and their hands are huge, so the fingers are wrapped all the way around my upper arm and are sort of poking at my armpits, and i'm ticklish so i was really screaming (but not in laughter, it was like - i was just freaking out). then i see my phone on the floor nearby and i try to reach for it, but person won't let me and keeps shaking me and demanding stuff from me. so now i'm pissed and i look right at the person and i start yelling in japanese, like "yamenasai yamenasai ii kagen ni hanase!!" and that totally throws the person off and is like "whut, yamenasai??? o_O" so i just keep yelling at 'em, and then i finally decide to try and kick 'em in the face and-
i wake up. ._____. i could still feel the grip on my shoulders and the weird tickly feeling under my arms. and it was still only freaking 2 am and i felt like there's a witch after me somewhere in Hollywood. i'm surprised that dream didn't continue when i finally got to sleep again.
sometimes i'm really glad i don't dream this vividly. >_<
now, from what i remember, it started with me playing a video game. and it'd alternate between me watching the screen like a normal game, and me being the character i was controlling and everything being in first person. i honestly don't remember what exactly the game was about, or what i was really doing. i remember the graphics not being very good, though... it was like one of the last games to come out for the original PlayStation or something. that's what it looked like. anyways, i don't remember much of it, but i remember lots of sidequests.
the last part is much clearer to me. i was supposed to be going to the store for something important. i remember making the character walk over there, and then the screen fading to black to load. and then here i was the character, and i was walking to the store. and for some reason, it looked nothing like the game anymore. i was on the corner of Hollywood and Western, heading for the Out of the Closet store there. and i had my phone out and was about to call my sister, 'cause she was gonna guide me and give me instructions.
so i'm walking, head's kinda bowed 'cause i'm dialing, i think one of my iPod headphones was in my ear. i'm not quite paying attention to where i'm going. and then suddenly, somebody sort of steps into my peripheral vision and i figure "oh whatever, person just walking by". but then that person grabs me, forcing me to look up, sort of dragging me toward the wall. and i'm like, shocked, so i drop my phone. and this person's all up in my face, and for some reason i feel like i've seen this person before, like it was one of those people that ask for money or donations or something that i'd said i'd give something to later. so i was like "i don't have anything i don't have anything right now!" but person didn't seem to care - i don't remember what exactly they were saying, but- i think they were looking for something that i was supposed to have? i dunno.
and i dropped my phone, right? so it falls on the floor and i'm like "crap, my phone!" and the person goes "you don't need it!" and freaking shoves me in that direction and steps over my phone - and person has all these long robes with a hood and crap, so i'm convinced that they're trying to steal my phone and i freak out. and i'm all screaming "i need my phone, let me grab my phone, i have to talk to my sister!" and person's got me by the shoulders and is shaking me like "no you don't, where is it?!"
at some point they dragged me to the floor so i'm like, on my knees. and their hands are huge, so the fingers are wrapped all the way around my upper arm and are sort of poking at my armpits, and i'm ticklish so i was really screaming (but not in laughter, it was like - i was just freaking out). then i see my phone on the floor nearby and i try to reach for it, but person won't let me and keeps shaking me and demanding stuff from me. so now i'm pissed and i look right at the person and i start yelling in japanese, like "yamenasai yamenasai ii kagen ni hanase!!" and that totally throws the person off and is like "whut, yamenasai??? o_O" so i just keep yelling at 'em, and then i finally decide to try and kick 'em in the face and-
i wake up. ._____. i could still feel the grip on my shoulders and the weird tickly feeling under my arms. and it was still only freaking 2 am and i felt like there's a witch after me somewhere in Hollywood. i'm surprised that dream didn't continue when i finally got to sleep again.
sometimes i'm really glad i don't dream this vividly. >_<
